a pictures worth a thousand words...

which is good, because I don't feel like writing much :)

A couple of weeks ago, my dear friend Lauren Steveonson (aka Smith) came for a visit from CO. -We all got together for dinner at Chili's. She had not seen Aubrey since she was like 2 weeks old! 

Lauren came over and spent some quality time with Miss Aubrey- what a great pic!! 

Lauren, Casey and I took Lauren's moms boat out- it was an eventful night :)

Lauren A. & Laura K. 

This was at Lauren and Lauren's friend Crystal's wedding (I was Lauren S.'s date :)) 

The L-Crew! :)

Of course sleeping pictures.. Aubrey fell asleep playing with her baby.. 

how sweet is that?? ;)

After my brothers senior recognition dinner- us with G-daddy! 

Aubrey and Grandma 

Me, Aubrey and Natalie and Lola went for a walk around the pond- she was completely relaxed and passed out before we even started! I need to get some pics of Aubrey's new little friend.. :)

Sat. night I went out for my soon-to-be cousin's lingerie and bachelorette party! 

Me and Kayla at Pete's Piano Bar! 

and again.. This was Aubrey's first time to sleep on her stomach! which she did all by herself! 

She has gone to town on rolling over this weekend! she started about a month ago, but then got lazy and stopped, but now she won't stop! You go girl! haha :) 

she had completely worn herself out that night.. 

She had just woken up from a little swing nap.. she woke so happy! she's all wrapped up in the blanket because she was only in a diaper :) 

Well, I guess that sums up the past couple of weeks.. more pics to come after this coming weekend: Aubrey's first birthday party, little Jakey-poo! :), my cousins wedding, and my brothers graduation! I'm tired already! :) 

<3

Here we go.

a happier post! :) 

I really think my previous post helped me, just to let things out. Thanks for everyone's encouraging words! 

So, my very first Mother's Day was great! Nothing overly fancy or special, but just being a mom made it wonderful! My step dad made all of us lunch at the bakery, then afterwards the girls (plus collin-my nephew) went walking around downtown Grapevine, then Aubrey spit up all over her outfit so we went to the car and changed her and decided to go to Grapevine Mills Mall ... I did not particularly want to go to the Mall.. considering I did not have a stroller!! I did not know we were going to go out, or I sure as heck would have brought it, because Lord knows carrying around a 17 lb baby is not all that fun!! Needless to say, after I bought some things at The Childrens Place, me and Aubrey mostly hung out on the benches! ugh! and it was nap time so she was getting fidgety (I was not in a great mood, but my sisters wanted to shop!) she eventually fell asleep and became dead weight! haha! Other than that, good day! :) 

Mother and Daughter! 

she got a little worn out after lunch :)

Aubrey is eating like a champ!! She chows down on the sweet potatoes and loves her cereal and bananas! Although, I was REALLY hoping that her eating foods now she wouldn't want a bottle every 3-4 hours, well, not so much, at least not yet anyway! I love watching her eat, its fun seeing how she is learning to move her mouth and tongue right.. speaking of tongues.. 

She has definitely discovered hers! As she is "talking" she moves it around all over the place, like she is trying to make words, and she sticks it out! so cute! It seriously cracks me up- don't know if others have that same reaction, but I think I'm supposed to! haha :) 

I seriously think I need to make a folder of pics just of her sleeping! I love watching her sleep, in all her crazy positions and she just looks so peaceful. needless to say, I have a ton of sleeping photos!! 

My little girl is really growing and coming into her own personality, I'm just amazed by her. She is such a joy in my life!!

my scanner wasn't working, so I was ghetto and took 

a picture of a picture! haha.. but, these were just the 

best pictures of her, she was laughing and smiling 

the whole time! these are just a couple.. :) 

Aubrey has been such a mommas girl today! she has just wanted to be with me all day, kinda unlike her, she's usually pretty independent, so I welcomed the extra cuddle time! :) My favorite is when we are laying next to each other, or even when I'm just holding her and she just looks up at me like she's studying my face and then reaches her sweet little hand and puts in on my face, just precious :) 

<3

COMING SOON...

a happier post!! :)

.....

Has anyone had someone do something so wrong and so hurtful to you that its all you can do not to cry all day?? I know I am commanded to forgive those who do me wrong, but how? 

for those who may not be aware:

in a nutshell, a very small nutshell, me and Aubrey's father ("father" is used for a reason..) had mediation yesterday, basically to determine Aubrey's life until she 18. it was the absolutely hardest thing I have ever had to do. I got mad, I got sad, I got frustrated.. I cried. the outcome is not what I would have liked (at all really) but I guess its better than what it could have been. I just really don't understand some people, like their ways of thinking. Its amazing to me the differences in the interpretations of the words "reasonable" and "logical". 

you would think.. oh the many, many ways that could be finished! 

unfair. I have never really understood the meaning of that word until now. 

I'm not talking what's fair to me at all. this is ALL about Aubrey, apparently some people didn't get that memo. 

FAITH. faith faith faith faith. TRUST. SURRENDER. OBEY. ... FORGIVE. ... LOVE. PRAY.

this will definitely be a process. this will not happen over night, the hurt is waayyy too deep. But I have, and will continue, to leave this to God. If I do things my way, I would be bitter forever. If I do things God's way, I will have a peace-filled, rewarding life. a life to be enjoyed. not to say that hurt won't still be there or it will have been forgotten, but it won't be my concern (or at least that's the goal!). 

so, please please pray for me (and my family- I'm not the only one affected by this)

God is bigger than me and all of my ideas of how things should have gone. Things happened the way they did because GOD said so. I have to remember that. over and over. I can't do the "what if" game.. I will end up in the looney bin! God knows how this will affect Aubrey, God allowed this all for a reason- a reason I'm not aware of (unfortunately!!)- a reason that I have to have faith in. period. .. period! 

I know this is not detailed at all, I'm sorry. I will give details if anyone wants to know privately, I think that would be best. I'm debating on even posting this. I just needed to write, I think I will have to come and re-read this ALOT! 

so... if anyone has any suggestions of any books/devotionals/Bible studies that deal with forgiving others and loving those who you just don't really want to.. please let me know. or just any words of encouragement.. I'm just really struggling right now. 

sorry to be such a downer.. 

Thank you to anyone who has prayed about this situation, I really do believe it has helped!! 

Also, please pray for him and his family as well. (right now I can't). 

 alright,  I guess  that should do. I will post something happier soon!! :) 

I love you all! :)

growing girl!

Well, my little baby is a growing, growing girl! Time for food!! Yep, Yesterday Aubrey had some cereal.. and today we added sweet potatoes! Let's just say, there will be no problem getting her to eat! there could be a serious weight problem soon! lol! 

I just can't believe she is already old enough to eat!!! 

    First "Bite"     She Likes!        Time for a relaxing        bottle!

Deciding if she likes sweet potatoes... 

... and she does! :)

what a silly girl!

(not sure why I have this blue line.. annoying..)

the other night I laid Aubrey down for bed, but she kept fidgeting, so I laid down in my bed with her to get her to calm down.. so we're just laying there face to face and I'm just humming to her (she likes it) :) and then I start telling her I love her and she starts giggling and 'talking' which I translated to her saying "I love you too" :) and she kept putting her hands on my face, and that's how she fell asleep! I just LOVE moments like that!! 

absolutely the sweetest!

This is how she fell asleep.

My flash is really bright!

So we have had a pretty relaxing weekend- didn't go anywhere!! Just stayed at home and played and didn't have to rush for anything, soo nice! 

Here is an ending picture- please don't call CPS- this is how she falls asleep at night or just during a nap! it's awful! I'm constantly pulling the cover down, then by the time I turn around she has pulled it back up! I guess if she couldn't breath she would move it!! ayiyi! haha.. 

Hope everyone has a great week! :)