Monday, December 29, 2008

Mommyhood! :)


Looks like a much needed update is in order!
I'M A MOMMY!! 
This whole experience, from going to the hospital until now, has definitely not been anything like I had imagined! I really didn't think that I would have been induced, or that it would have taken 15 hours and been as hard and painful as it was... a little pain, yes, but wanting to die.. not so much! haha. I later found out that during delivery my heart-rate began dropping, my blood pressure was rising (it was around 150.. apparently it was supposed to be around 80-90!), I ran fever, I started becoming very nauseous, and I felt like I was suffocating! (where's that inhaler!? lol), and some muscles I have down below are supposedly very strong that's why it was so hard for the baby to push through.. leading to tearing and cutting! AND, the cord was wrapped around her neck! I did not find this stuff out until later Saturday night. Which I'm glad I did not know these things, especially the cord, during delivery, I'm sure I would have freaked out! As awful as all of that was.. it was worth every minute the second I saw her! It was such a surreal moment. You have a thousand emotions overcoming you all at once. Of course I cried as soon as they laid her on me. It's hard to even describe how I felt at that moment, just overwhelmed. 
ok.. enough of all the mushy :) 
Since I have popped her out.. (haha).. 
I kept hearing about all the things that will happen  to your body after you have a baby, just the way things will feel.. and what will come out.. lol.. but you don't really "get it" until it starts happening! I swear, she just may be an only child! It just seems like its one thing after another. Once I start feeling more myself, something else goes out of whack! I just want to be "me" again!! lol! I know I know.. its only been a little over a week, it takes time, blah blah.. but I'm impatient! :) 
One thing I have realized, possibly why its hard for women to lose their baby weight, all of your eating habits have changed in the last 9 months, making sure you're eating enough, and the right things (at least you can try :)). But the main things is, you're always eating, or making sure you will be able to eat. So while I was in the hospital I was still in that mode, thinking "I need to eat" "is this ok to eat".. then I realized.. I can eat however much and whenever I want now! If I don't feel like eating, I don't have to, or I can start eating a lot less now! Which made me think, that's probably why women hold on to their weight. But it is a very strange transitioning, something I never would have thought about. Just something to ponder.. :) 
Everything else really has been wonderful! I'm seriously going to go broke on all the pictures I will have printed of her! There is already a TON I need printed so I can start scrapbooking! :) Sleeping at night really hasn't been all that bad, just a couple of rough nights. But my mom and Marvin have been super helpful and will come and get her to feed or rock till she falls asleep sometimes. The medicine I'm still on makes me tired, so I'm sure once I get off of it, it won't be so bad getting up in the night to take care of her. But I just love getting her dressed to go places, its so fun picking out outfits :) I quickly realized that I will need to set aside at least another 30 minutes when it comes to getting us ready! There is so much stuff you have to make sure you pack. And they eat so much! About every 3 hours (at least) for my chunky monkey! and all the diapers..  sheesh! lol! But she is just the sweetest little girl and I love her to pieces! I have a swing and a bounce seat.. I'm not sure if they will ever go into use seeing as someone is ALWAYS holding her! Especially PaPa! haha. 
She is amazing and I am truly blessed to be her momma! :)  

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

*insert jeopardy music*

I'M WAITING..!!
Where is she already? Everyone was soo sure I would have her early, now nothing! I'm not totally looking forward to all the labor and delivery part, I just want to get it over with! But I'm kinda ready to just not be pregnant anymore. And I am sooo ready to see her!!
The weirdest thing is when I can feel her head move! VERY strange. Also, I was thinking last night, while I was putting the pillow cases back on my pillows and I was bending over and just moving all around, I'm doing all this with a person inside of me!! It's just weird that you can bend your 
stomach (sort of) and just do all your normal stuff with a baby in you! and it doesn't hurt her. I don't know if it seems all that weird (or whatever word) to anyone else, but its a little mind blowing to me!
I just so can't wait to see what she looks like! (she is moving all around right now! You can see my stomach just going crazy! I have my camera by me so I was going to video my stomach moving, and of course she stops! go figure!)
In just a matter of days I will have a child!! I mean, I know I have one now, but soon she will be out of me! CRAZY! But sooo exciting! :)

Well.. guess that's about it.. time for some jumping jacks and mexican food! gotta do what I can to get her outta here! jk :)

~Laura
p.s.
I don't know why the end of some words are going to the next line, it's all weird. sorry.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

just sittin around..

I'm just waiting for my class to start, so I thought I would kill some time. The entire time I have been on the computer this little girl has been doing somersaults I swear! my stomach has been moving around all over the place, if anyone was looking I'm sure they would be able to tell! I will miss that.

So I pretty much have like 2 weeks left to my due date.. um, how crazy is that!? She could get here ANYTIME!! The doctor told me probably not this week, but that she was on call friday night.. just in case! haha. I really just need to make till after Tuesday, the 9th, because that is when I have finals! After that I guess it really doesn't matter when she comes! Although, I would perfer not the 12th, Sarah's birthday, and the 13th is my cousin Eddie's graduation.. well, as long as she waited till after the graduation, that way all the family would still be in town. Then there are like a hundred other birthdays still in December... so, I just hope she doesn't have to share with anyone. Its bad enough it will be so close to Christmas!

I still have not found the perfect coming home outfit for her. :( everything I pick everyone tells me it will still be too big on her, even if its newborn! I really kinda wanted a dress, but that has been close to impossible! Most everything is 0-3 months, which she falls into, but newborn would be better. she is just going to come home naked! haha, jk. I'm so focused on what she will come home in I haven't even really thought about me. Probably some comfy pants! I have no idea how anything will fit, so I think I will just go with something still kinda stretchy, just in case!
I think Marvin asks me everyday if my bag is ready. Its not. I keep telling them I still use everything that will go in the bag, like my toiletries, and bras, makeup, and my cell phone charger (just in case).. so, pretty much when the time comes I'm going to be running around like crazy trying to put my bag together! I have a list made of everything I will need, that way hopefully I won't forget anything! If I do, I will just send someone home to get what I need :)

Alright, well, I will try and get some pics up.. I better hurry before I run out of time!
Later Haters :)