Mommyhood! :)

Looks like a much needed update is in order!

I'M A MOMMY!! 

This whole experience, from going to the hospital until now, has definitely not been anything like I had imagined! I really didn't think that I would have been induced, or that it would have taken 15 hours and been as hard and painful as it was... a little pain, yes, but wanting to die.. not so much! haha. I later found out that during delivery my heart-rate began dropping, my blood pressure was rising (it was around 150.. apparently it was supposed to be around 80-90!), I ran fever, I started becoming very nauseous, and I felt like I was suffocating! (where's that inhaler!? lol), and some muscles I have down below are supposedly very strong that's why it was so hard for the baby to push through.. leading to tearing and cutting! AND, the cord was wrapped around her neck! I did not find this stuff out until later Saturday night. Which I'm glad I did not know these things, especially the cord, during delivery, I'm sure I would have freaked out! As awful as all of that was.. it was worth every minute the second I saw her! It was such a surreal moment. You have a thousand emotions overcoming you all at once. Of course I cried as soon as they laid her on me. It's hard to even describe how I felt at that moment, just overwhelmed. 

ok.. enough of all the mushy :) 

Since I have popped her out.. (haha).. 

I kept hearing about all the things that will happen  to your body after you have a baby, just the way things will feel.. and what will come out.. lol.. but you don't really "get it" until it starts happening! I swear, she just may be an only child! It just seems like its one thing after another. Once I start feeling more myself, something else goes out of whack! I just want to be "me" again!! lol! I know I know.. its only been a little over a week, it takes time, blah blah.. but I'm impatient! :) 

One thing I have realized, possibly why its hard for women to lose their baby weight, all of your eating habits have changed in the last 9 months, making sure you're eating enough, and the right things (at least you can try :)). But the main things is, you're always eating, or making sure you will be able to eat. So while I was in the hospital I was still in that mode, thinking "I need to eat" "is this ok to eat".. then I realized.. I can eat however much and whenever I want now! If I don't feel like eating, I don't have to, or I can start eating a lot less now! Which made me think, that's probably why women hold on to their weight. But it is a very strange transitioning, something I never would have thought about. Just something to ponder.. :) 

Everything else really has been wonderful! I'm seriously going to go broke on all the pictures I will have printed of her! There is already a TON I need printed so I can start scrapbooking! :) Sleeping at night really hasn't been all that bad, just a couple of rough nights. But my mom and Marvin have been super helpful and will come and get her to feed or rock till she falls asleep sometimes. The medicine I'm still on makes me tired, so I'm sure once I get off of it, it won't be so bad getting up in the night to take care of her. But I just love getting her dressed to go places, its so fun picking out outfits :) I quickly realized that I will need to set aside at least another 30 minutes when it comes to getting us ready! There is so much stuff you have to make sure you pack. And they eat so much! About every 3 hours (at least) for my chunky monkey! and all the diapers..  sheesh! lol! But she is just the sweetest little girl and I love her to pieces! I have a swing and a bounce seat.. I'm not sure if they will ever go into use seeing as someone is ALWAYS holding her! Especially PaPa! haha. 

She is amazing and I am truly blessed to be her momma! :)