Third Trimester!

So, I am now into my third trimester! whoo-hoo! sort of..! They say the first trimester you're really sick and tired all the time, the second you get this boost of energy, and the third you start getting tired again.. well, I have been more than just tired! I'm starting to wonder if my body just isn't quite cut out for pregnancy! lol. I have had so many issues it seems! Within the last 2 weeks I have gone to the doctors/hospital FIVE times! that's a little ridiculous! and I could have made it 6 on Sunday since all that night I was feeling really nauseous and woke up at about 6am to throw up 4 times! (I have gone my ENTIRE pregnancy throw up free.. and now!!??) hopefully it was just a fluke, which I'm thinking it was since the rest of Sunday I pretty much slept away, didn't eat barely anything, and then had fever that night!! If my temp. had gone up 1 degree more I could have been back to the hospital! Let's hope this is not a foretelling of how my final days will be! haha. Don't get me wrong though, I do love being pregnant.. it's such a cool experience! You can get away with so much more too! lol! But I am sort of ready for it to be over (although, I think I will be sad when it is!) so that I can know for sure everything is ok with the baby. I have never had so much fear and anxiety over something as I do now with this little one! Plus, I just want to see how cute she is going to be! :)  

Oh! I have been looking at tons of baby bedding (I think I will just have someone make me a blanket instead of all the bedding. And the blanket won't just be a baby one, like one she can use for a while.. if that makes sense.. lol) It is really hard picking one! I have bookmarked alot! Do I want something more solid so I can accessorize, or something with just a pattern, or something with little fireflies on it.. ? oh choices! I'm realizing I need to decide soon since my baby shower is just around the corner! I will probably register this weekend! exciting! :) 

alrighty.. guess that's good for now! 

~Laura

My poor arms!

So, went to the doc again today! After not eating anything after about 7:15 last night, I was just a bit hungry by the time I go to the office. They take my blood right away and give me this nasty glucose drink that you have to finish in 5 minutes, then wait an hour and have my blood taken again.. repeat two more times!! (well, not the drink) (the test takes 3 hours!) My arms are still bruised from a week and a half ago from that appt., and from last sat. when I went to the ER! so after FOUR more sticks my poor arms look awful!! and they are so sore! It sucks! by the last draw they couldn't even get any blood out of my right arm! and having my blood taken is sooo not one of my favorite things! after the first draw and the drink I was feeling very nauseous and wasn't sure if I would be able to finish the test, bc if I were to throw up then I have to come back another day and start all over! So I pushed through! Definitely not a fun thing! So cross your fingers, toes, and everything else that I don't have this stupid diabetes!! And go back to the doc. for just my regular appt. on Oct. 1... if I have to have blood drawn again I'm going to go crazy! (which I have had to do at EVERY appt. I have been to!!) Ayiyi!! only 3 more months.. :) 

Sigh..

Today is one of those days my emotions are getting to the best of me. I'm in a very annoyed mood and really don't have any reason to be. Just am. I also feel slightly depressed. I guess I do have reason for things to depress me, although some of those reasons are my choice, so.. i guess I really shouldn't be? None the least, still am a bit. I just wish some things were different. 

So, I'm off to another unscheduled doctors appt. on Friday morning! Look's like I didn't pass my diabetes test last week, so I have to go for a more in depth test friday. which stinks bc you have to fast the night before! that means no food or drink, even water!, starting at 8:30 p.m. Thursday night- after my test friday! My appt. is at 8:30 am, but still, you can't keep a prego from eating! crazy people! :) I don't really know alot about diabetes, but the one thing I relate to it is no sweets, or at least a limited amount. My name is Laura and I'm a sweet-aholic! This could be a problem. Although, with this type of diabetes, they say it can go away after you have the baby. so that's good. but let's just hope I don't have it at all!! I'm tired of going to the doctors.. and it's only going to get worse as time goes on! well, really I'm just tired of going to find out if there are things wrong with me. and getting my blood taken! for some reason I'm bruising really easily, and badly, now. my arm looks like I'm a junkie! no lie! oh the joys of being pregnant.. ! 

Also, I'm really tired. In every sense of the word. I feel like all I do is sleep, but I'm still so tired physically. but also very tired of thinking. there is so much to think about and plan and wonder and try to figure out... its exhausting. 

well, I'm going to put my clothes in the dryer and go to bed. at 9:30. lame. 

Don't worry, tomorrow should be better! :) 

Some realizations...

First, let me just say, this little baby is moving around like crazy right now!! I guess she likes Whataburger too :) It's the strangest feeling when she starts kicking around, sometimes it kinda grosses me out so I move so that she will stop! lol. They say babies are moving around in there alot, so you would think you would constantly be feeling someone swimming around your insides, but not so much. which I'm kinda thankful for. Sometimes she kicks so hard its a little uncomfortable, but I wouldn't trade it for anything! Even though the thought of it is kinda gross (to me anyway. I mean if you really think about what's going on!) it's also very amazing! There is a little person inside my belly! Hello! Crazy!! The closer it gets time for her to pop out, the more I'm REALLY realizing, I'M GOING TO HAVE A KID!!! I feel totally comfortable with knowing what to do and all that, but knowing that she is mine, my responsibility to raise in a Godly way, to make sure she is always safe and loved, and knows her manners, and doesn't bite other kids (lol- that is actually a very big issue at around age 2!) and to teach her to walk and talk and eat by herself.. pretty crazy.. and slightly overwhelming at times! I feel like I'm going to be very overprotective! I don't really want to be, but, I don't want anyone else to mess her up! lol! I don't know if that really makes sense..? 

So for one of my realizations.. I don't want to work! (haha, like that's really new!) But, for a for real reason now! So I work at a daycare, I see the parents drop off their kids, some are upset to leave them, some not so much. The parents obviously don't have a choice, they do have to work! But, then, its like, they have no idea how their child is during the day! How they act, what the do, what they learn.. it's really sad. I don't want to not know what my child does for hours without me! It sucks! Especially since I'm with the little bitty babies, and I see how much those kids do during their time with me, their parents are missing all that interaction! Plus, how can I really trust someone to take care of my kid as good as me?! :)  As much as I have a love/hate relationship with my job, I'm really thinking its a good thing I'm there! That way, I can be with her at work (hopefully still in the same class!) then when I get off work I get to take her with me and spend the rest of the day together, so.. I won't really be missing out on much hopefully! I just want to be a stay at home mom for a couple of years.. who wants to pay for my living?! :) 

I have now forgotten my other realizations.. oops. 

But let me just say, becoming a mom has REALLY changed my ways of thinking on alot of things! Actually, its made me think of things that I normally wouldn't have thought twice about. It's crazy how much you can care for someone who isn't even here yet.. it's mindblowing to say the least!! But I CANNOT wait to hold my little one, to see who she will be, and look like, and how she will act, and do her hair in pigtails EVERY day, and take her picture a zillion times! It's going to be great! :) 

And it begins...

First, let me say, this blog is all thanks to Mrs. Lauren Stevenson, who has convinced me to do one of these!  

Now, don't really know how to go about all this, but.. 

This will probably be mostly a baby blog, with random other goings on in my life.. but the baby is the most exciting, so she will mostly be focused on! :) 

At the moment I'm going completely blank on what to say.. so, instead of trying to come up with something, I will just return later! 

Hope y'all enjoy.. whoever "y'all" will be! :)