Into the 9th!

I am in my 9th and FINAL month! a very bittersweet time for sure. I am super stoked about her being here in probably just a matter of weeks.. but that also means I won't be pregnant anymore! duh I know.. but it's kinda weird. For the last 8 months really that's all that I have thought about.. being pregnant. That's what your life revolves around.. and then its just over. All those changes and feelings are gone. It's a good thing it is replaced by a sweet little baby, or it would really suck! haha! 

I went to the doc's today.. unfortunately not much news. I guess nothing has really progressed much from last week. She put her bet on that I won't have her within the week, and she "will be a monkey's uncle" if I do! lol.. she's quite an entertaining doctor! Although, something that I learned, she might not be the one to deliver the baby! If I go into labor when it's not one of her scheduled shifts or she's not on-call.. I get someone else. I'm pretty bummed about that. She says she delivers about 80% of her babies, so I guess that's good odds.. hopefully I fall into that 80%. Hmm.. I think that's about it on the doctor visit. 

I have decided to make a list of the things I love.. and love a little less about being pregnant: 

Love:

you don't have to worry about sucking in for pictures! 

you get to wear really comfy clothes

the knowing that there is a person growing inside of you.. it's absolutely mind blowing

getting to feel that person move inside of you.. the most wonderful feeling ever! 

getting to hear the heartbeat of the little one.. priceless.

getting to eat whatever you want.. for the most part :)

people going out of their way to make sure you're comfortable and have what you need

the fact that i'm going to be a mommy!

all of the changes your body goes through- pregnancy effects so many areas of your body I had no idea about!

NAPS!! 

buying a bunch of cute baby stuff 

feeling the baby have hiccups.. very odd

seeing how excited everyone is that you're having a baby

strangers caring and asking questions and congratulating you

having a love for someone you haven't even met that is indescribable! 

Love a little less:

feeling and looking fat! 

going to the bathroom a thousand times a day!

not ever really being able to actually get comfortable

the constant feeling that you're suffocating

the kicks in the ribs.. not very enjoyable

constant tossing and turning during the night

mood swings.. sometimes you just can't control em.

stretch marks that I just now got.. ugh.. 

the feeling of your stomach resting on your legs when you're sitting.. very strange

constant pain in your back

things i took for granted: 

being able to bend over with out having to squat funny

being able to tie my shoes and shave my legs with ease

being able to lie on my stomach

doing everything for just myself

being able to see under my stomach.. lol

being able to stay up late.. sleep becomes your best friend when you can get it!

sense of balance.. you wouldn't believe how many times you trip over yourself or loose your footing

memory. even doing this list i forget what all i want to put on here! (aka- baby brain, it's for real!) 

picking up and holding my nephew

picking up and holding anything over 10 lbs! lol 

walking up stairs.. you have no idea how much energy that takes when you're 7+ months! 

being able to drink as much coke and coffee as you want

Well, those are just a few things. I know as soon as I post this I will think of a ton more reasons! Even though there are some things about being pregnant that aren't completely enjoyable.. I wouldn't trade any of it for a second. It is such a wonderful and fascinating time, its hard to describe the kind of feelings you get, emotionally. Your moods definitely go on a roller coaster ride, and a ride it it for sure! But the feelings I mean are not that of happy or sad so much, but more of protectiveness, joy, anxious, nervous, scared, unconditional love.. it's just wonderful. plain and simple. 

That is all for now. :) 

Hope everyone has a wonderful thanksgiving! :)

getting close!!

My goodness.. just one more month till the little one is here!! I am soo ready for her to be here, but also feel like I need more time! not sure for what, I just somehow don't feel prepared. Not like incapability, like, things aren't organized, or I don't have everything I need.. ? And as ready and wanting as I am for her to be here, it doesn't seem real that she will actually be here.. does that make sense? It's just very surreal. 

I went to the hospital on Sat. with my mom and Sarah for a tour of the labor and delivery! It was very enlightening. They showed us all the rooms we would be going to during different stages, of course depending on how things are progressing you might skip some! haha. The actual delivery room is pretty big, I'm pretty sure you can have visitors in there up until show time! lol. There is a jet bath tub if I would like to partake, or have the baby in there! haha, no thank you! there are big birthing balls, pretty much a huge exercise ball that you can bounce on or roll your back across, I guess..? Then the bed. So, how everyone has seen people give birth laying back and pushing.. not the case here! I will be in a complete upright position, with my feet propped up on a lower level.. my butt (and other area, lol) will be like hanging off the bed.. kinda like I'm squatting off the bed... not really sure if that was a good visual.. haha! To me, this seems super uncomfortable!! like my stomach is going to be major squished. But, they say it is a much better way to deliver because gravity is help pulling the baby down. Otherwise if you're laying down, or back, you are having to push harder to get the baby up and out. It makes sense, just seems like a wayyy more awkward position!! yikes! :) 

Then.. they showed us the nursery! There was one baby in there that was 2 hours old!! So weird to picture that baby being inside a belly just 2 hours ago! It seemed so big. These poor babies must really be squished up in there! haha. There they talked about all the test and and things they will check for before bringing the baby back to me. Once I have the baby, they will let me keep her for about an hour, during that time visitors are welcome, but they say to not let anyone in till the end so that we can have that initial bonding and skin contact time. Then, after they take her to the nursery they will clean me up (gross) and let me get in the shower and stuff, I'm guessing. During this time visitors are also welcome.. well, after I'm clean :) The bad thing about this, is that the baby could be in the nursery up to 3 hours! depending on how busy they are! Bummer! Hopefully it won't be that long because I would hate for everyone to be just sitting around. Everyone says the time flies.. but to the visitors too? they don't care about me, they want the baby! haha! So, I guess there isn't a huge rush for everyone to get to the hospital right away. 

Also, they showed the different rooms you can get. Semi-private, private or suite. Semi is the only covered by insurance, so you have to pay to upgrade. and after seeing the rooms.. I'm so paying! The semi is 2 beds with a curtain separating them! no thank you! I would hate to have to share the room with another family, how annoying. So, we will be paying the extra $100 a night for the private room! :) 

Overall, it was very interesting to see everything and know what to expect to a degree. I would recommend it to first time mommies. 

Also, I think she is going to come early! My lower back has been KILLING me the past few days, and my stomach has been hurting a little extra as well. My mom thinks these are signs or early labor! Plus, I'm still having the Braxton Hicks contractions.. so.. yeah. When I went to the doc's last week she says some of the signs will feel like cramping. Which I have had more back cramping then stomach cramping, so I don't know if that makes a difference? But she said there is no way I will be confused about real labor! She said it will feel like really bad cramps, to the point where you can't really talk during them! fun stuff! Definitely don't think I'm there yet, but I think something is going on. Today has been really tough, and uncomfortable, and painful. No bueno. :(  But I go to the Doc again tomorrow (and every week now) so we will see what she has to say. She is going to be checking down south now (ugh!!) so she will be able to tell if she has dropped, and if I'm dilating at all (which apparently you can start doing before you are in labor!) so.. should be interesting! :) 

Alrighty, I guess that was pretty sufficient for what's been going on :) Hope you enjoyed Smith :) (I know that's not your name, but whatever :)) 

Love, Momma-to-be-VERY- soon! :) 

be warned!

just a heads up, i'm in a very not so good mood.. there may be a little venting going on.. 

today has been miserable! I'm so tired of working I could scream! it's becoming very very painful! which then just irritates the crap out of me! I work with babies.. babies play on the floor.. which mean i must get on the floor. which means i am getting up and down off the floor picking up babies a thousand times a day! normally, no biggie, but when you're 8 months preggo and have all this extra weight pulling on your back.. well, I just want to cry. Its soo frustrating. especially since i know that if i wasn't pregnant this wouldn't be bothering me at all, but since i am, and i have to work, there is nothing i can do about it but be miserable. and, which sometimes is a little funny, every time i hold one of the babies, whether to feed or rock to sleep, aubrey will kick the crap out of them, and me! jealousy? lol. but sometimes its a little painful, but i mean, i have to hold the babies! and now im wondering if its hurting her with the babies on my stomach. that is on my list of questions to ask the doc next week :) I just soooo wish I didn't have to work! oh, it would be so nice.. maybe with the next one.. lol.

oh, I think I may be getting braxton hicks contractions now! my mom is convinced, but since I have never experienced them, i don't really know for sure? although, one of the other preggos at work told me she is getting them and described them.. so I'm thinking I probably am. which doesn't really mean anything right now, unless they become really frequent and painful.. then a baby might be on the way! haha. :) although, still not the most comfortable thing right now, its kinda like she is just balling up and pushing up against me really hard. another question for the doc.. :)

also, i HATE that i am in school this semester! I soo wish I took it off!! after being at work and doing all the other stuff I need to do, school is pretty much the last thing that I want to do at night. I just want to put some comfy clothes on a relax. I know I just go twice a week, but it takes a toll on you more than you know when you're pregnant. 

sometimes I just want to scream!

As excited as I am about this little one coming... I just hate the whole situation! I just have to keep remembering God allowed this to all happen for a reason.. what that reason is, I haven't a clue! But I know God will work it all out the way He wants it. Because I am no longer making decisions.. that didn't really work out to well. As much as I would like to be in control and see how things would go if I did it my way, I'm not going to!! In any area of my life! 

Ok, well this has been really depressing, sorry. I'm kind of in a depressed mood. life is very overwhelming. 

On a lighter note, I had my baby shower! Although, it didn't quite go as planned.. but hey, whatever! as soon as I can get my pics onto this stupid computer I will put some up! (I hate macs sometimes!!) 

pray for me. lol.

nap time.. :)